angel of truth

Wonderful Day! Such a BLESSING! :)

2007-04-21T21:32:00.000+08:00

oh my GOD! i can't believe it, as in sobra! i passed first year. Thank God! Oh my GOD! haaayyy.. sobrang saya ko talaga! hayy. thank you Papa God ko, Thank You! You never let me down. haay. As In sobrang Thank You. Thank You din po sa mga mentors ko.. DOC's Thank You! *supertythuggss*

i wanna share this with you guys.. this kept me holding on..

Dear Soldier,

I see that you're tired. I tell you, drop your sword and put down your shield. Why worry about the fight? After all it's not your battle. It's mine. All you have to do is to be in the battle field. Then against the thousand who tried to destroy you, there i will stand and rescue you. Winning this WAR requires neither only me nor you. But rather ME and YOU. Just do your best and I'll take care of the rest.

Your COMMANDER, JESUS CHRIST.

Wala lang. gusto ko lang share sanyo. Basta, Lift up everything to him, never doubt. Keep your faith. Just do your best and i know, for sure (proven and tested) he'll take care of the rest. Love you Papa God.

Inspirational Quotes from my Friends:

"Don't give up when you still have something to give. Nothings really over unless you stop trying. Don't be afraid to encounter risks. It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave." - From Karen

"The minute you think of giving up, think of the reason why you held on so long." - Fom Master Joe

"Worrying Doesn't change naything. But trusting the LORD changes everything. When we put our cares in GOD's hands, HE puts HIS peace in our Heart." From my study buddy, Ghia.

My PARENTS raised ME up, I Won't let THEM down.

New Playlist! :)

2007-04-21T16:34:00.000+08:00

hey guys! changed my playlist already. ih you have time check the songs out. and yeah, sign my guest book and leave me a message at my tag-board. thanks yah all! :) peace out! :)

so like? hhmmm..

2007-04-18T23:35:00.000+08:00

grabe! got nothing to do! soo pissed off still! dude! come on! what's wrong? tell me.. please! you know i hate to be ignored. well, if you like it his way, so be it. im so like trying here. you can open up.. what's wrong? have i done something that offended you? hhmm.. can't remember actually!so like immature to be acting this way. huhuhuh :( you tend to be so cold and start to ignore me, i think i have the right to know why diba? diba? so tell me, bring it on! *peace*

im not stupid, so don't make me look stupid. i feel it. damn im human! i have feelings..

My Zodiac, The Virgin.

2007-04-18T22:21:00.000+08:00

Virgo, The Virgin

August 23 to September 22

The Virgo character is precise, refined, and a lover of cleanliness and hygiene. Conventional, with a rather reserved manner. They are usually observant, shrewd, critical, and patient. Supporters of the conservati'status quo', and ve in all areas of life. Virgos are undemonstrative due to a coolness in their nature. Very selective, and non committal in friendship, they prefer to keep relationships on a superficial basis.

Quietly reserved, Virgos are polite and soft spoken people. Unassuming, outwardly cheerful and agreeable, they can be sensible, discreet, wise and witty, with an understanding of other people's problems which they tackle with deftness. Virgos find their friends among those who can help them move up the social strata. They can be name droppers as they like to associate with achievers.

They are practical, mental people, possessing inquiring and logical minds. In this respect, they make excellent students, and good teachers. Their mental bend gives them the ability to analyze and solve the most complicated problems. Virgos have a wonderful eye for detail and often neglect the overall issues. Practical and good with their hands, they are excellent technicians and have good inventive talents. Hard workers and conscientious, they are perfectionists with little tolerance for shoddy work. There is no place in their world for people who are footloose and fancy free.

Weee! Summer-Bummin' at my Crib. :)

2007-04-18T20:00:00.000+08:00

Its my vacation. it's been a long time since my last blog. haha :) *thanks to jobsie, cos she reminded me of blogs!* when i opened blogspot, i forgot my username and password. tried different usernames and passwords, and finally i got in! hahaha :) added and removed some stuffs already. by the weekend, im gonna change my playlists. it sucks already, hella old old songs. hehehe :) aion.

NEXT...

Beach Life? anu b un? well, that's the game i've been playing for quite a long time already. its like "the sims" but here you get to build your own beach resort. really really ccol, nice reggae and house sounds too. :) i'll share with you a picture of my so called "lil bora". :) ung picture sa stop, sample! :) sobrang cool nito, you need to unlock the stages pa. basta try nyo.

NEXT...

Funny Funny morning. mom told me.

Mama: `Nak, si lolo mo nakakatawa kanina.
Reng: Bakit ma?
Mama: Kasi nung nagising siya, nagpunta siya ng bathroom. tapos ako nag luto ng breakfast.
Reng: o tapos?
Mama: hindi ko naman namalayan na lumabas na pala sa bathroom. tapos nung bumaba si papa mo, tinanong niya ako kung pinalitan ko ba daw ng damit si lolo mo.
Reng: nagpalit ng damit? pano? anung damit?
Mama: yun nga ung nakakatawa e. *mom laughs*
Reng: anu nga ma?
Mama: sinuot nya ung shirt mo na pink, ung may eagle sa left side. *mom laughs hard*
Reng: *laughs* seryoso? *laughs* san nya un nakuha?
Mama: aba malay ko. san mo ba un nilagay?
Reng: ahh, alam ko na. kasi diba sinuot ko na yun khpon, since sabi mo aalis tau ult sa hapon, sinabit ko sa hanger dun sa may sabitan.
Mama: sabi ko saknya, "tay, napintas ti shirt mo a" (guys its ilocano language, meaning: tay, ang ganda ng tshirt mo a.) sagot ni lolo mo "wen". (ilocano word meaning: oo)
Reng: *laughs*
Mama: tapos magwawalking na sana sila, pero pinalitan ng damit ni papa mo. bagay pala sakanya ang pink.
Reng: mama tlga o! hahaahah :)

hahahahaha :) i was really laughing hard when mom told me the story. imgained lolo wearing a pink top. hahahahaha :) ohwell, pretty cute though! love lolo so much. ang cute cute kasi e. hahaha :) love it when he smiles. love the way he fixes his plate. love the way he says, "too much" when im putting too much food in his plate. love the way he splits the banana and gives me the other half. there was this one time, i didn't eat breakfast with them, when i was about to eat, i saw half of the banana on top of my plate, our maid told me that lolo said "sa balasang ko", for me. :) hay. lolo so cute, but he keeps om forgetting my name. hehehe :) its ok, part of being an elderly.

NEXT...

i didn't get to play BEACH LIFE all day. hehehe :) after lunch, rested for awhile and then i fell asleep. hehehe:) when i woke up, i decided to give blu and maki (my dogs) a bath. weeee! maki is soo sweet, hehehe :) after which, i took a bath too. then watched "Kasal Kasali Kasalo" with mom sa dvd.

NEXT...

Katext ko c jobsie the wholeday, ahehe :) fun fun fun katext tlga! enjoy! puro kulitan at kwentuha. missed texting jobsie a. long time din since our last kwentuhan. aion, bibili kami ng PC games na madami tas i-rerate namin tas recommend recommend! hhahaha :) basta jobsie! recommend ko tlga ung beach life sau! mageenjoy ka!

NEXT...

im so pissed off. why do i feel na cold saken ung isang tao tapos i don't have the courage to ask. my gawd! pleaseee! if you're mad or pissed off saken, tell it straight to my face. stop ignoring ad being cold to me. hindi ako manghuhula para hulaan kung anu nanaman yung ginawa kong ndi mo nagustuhan. kaya please. hindi ko alam kung san ako lulugar e. ngaun ok tau, mamaya hindi na. anu bazzzzz?! labo e! please lang ha. nahihirapan na akong makisama. *peace*

...Panalangin...

2006-10-09T18:46:00.000+08:00

Long time, no bloggrinnggss. I've been really busy with school. Actually, i just finished my practicals for anatomy and my evaluations in anatomy and physiology lecture. Its hard, as always. The questions are so tricky, you're confident enough that you shaded the right letter on you answer sheet, but when the answer key comes out... DEADSSS!! hahaha :) the worst part is, you hadn't sleep just to study for that evaluation and then you'll flank!! hahaha :) well, yeah! i've said ths alot of times already, "there's no harm in trying! give your best shot! give your everything as much as possible!".. and ofcourse, More Sleepless nights! More FUUUNNN!!! ahehehe :) im starting to get used to sleeping at 3am in the morning and get up at 7am and attend class at 8am. this toxic life SUCCKKSS bigtime!! and who wants toxic life anyway? but when i think of the pateints or the people that will benefit from all of my sufferings in the future. well then, the sleepless nights and less social life is ALL WORTH WHILE.. :) i am determined to become a DOCTOR.. and i will become one, SOMEDAY! :)

I miss my college friends a lot :( they're the ones who's lacking in my life i think.. (besides love life..hehehe..) i miss the usual heart to heart talks on the way to school and on the way home with isay, i miss the JOE d' MANGO days every friday. i miss going home with my mandible in pain because of laughing until i cried. haha :) i missed laughing my heart out with josie and nyl.. all the corny jokes.. corny jokes that made our day.. :) i miss dancing experiences with ona. i miss laughtrip moments with nelly, bro and tina. haayy.. :( guys! i really do miss you. let's hang out this sembreak, we need it badly.. so many catching up to do.. :(

with regards to love life?! hhhhmmm.. HAPPY.. i can really say that i have moved on.. after four friggin' years of waiting.

whats with the title? anyway, its the song of APO Hiking Society and was remaked by MoonStar88. its a nice song, it reminds mo of... hehehe.. oh well, it just reminds me. this song really makes me smile and bit "kilig". i listen to it every morning since saturday.. hehe :) i would to share with you the lyrics.

PanalanginMoonstar 88

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay

Makapiling ka, makasama ka

Yan ang panalangin ko-oh

At hindi papayag, ang pusong ito

Mawala ka, sa ‘king piling

Mahal ko iyong dinggin.

Wala ng iba pang mas mahalaga

Sa tamis na dulog ng pag-ibig

Nating dal’wa…

At sana naman makikinig ka

Kapag aking sasabihin

Minamahal kita…

Panalangin ko sa habang buhay

Makapiling ka, makasama ka

Yan ang panalangin ko-oh

At hindi papayag, ang pusong ito

Mawala ka, sa ‘king piling

Mahal ko iyong dinggin.

if pain must come, let it come quickly. because i have a life to live, and i need to live it in the best way possible. if he has to make a choice, may he make it now. then i will either wiat for him or forget him. waiting is painful. but not knowing what to do is the WORST KIND OF SUFFERING.

Never Say Goodbye?!

2006-07-08T19:13:00.000+08:00

just another boring saturday rainy night for me. hehe :) haay.. im listening to my ipod and i came across this song, the title is "never say goodbye" and it was sung by jojo. it's a really nice song. the beat is good and most of all the lyrics is very very nice. :) yeah, its a senti song again. hehe :) i know this song for quite some time already, i missed it so much. hehe :) i just want to share the song to everyone viewing my blog, actually just the lyrics. but don't worry i'll find some host that has this song, so you guys can listen to it. hehe :)

Never Say Goodbye - Jojo

Never been in love Cause a girl like me Never had someone to care for Never thought there could be Someone special for me And now I'm all in love Cause a girl like me Waited patiently for someone Someone to care for me And there will never be

No more lonely, no more just me I've been there before Ain't goin no more And now that you're here I Never wanna say goodbye love Never wanna be without you No more cryin, no denyin' I'm in love with you And now that you're here I I never wanna say goodbye love

Now it's time for me To find out what the first time love could mean Little scared but its cool Cause it's worth it Now I finally fell in love And I know that it Gots to be for real (So real) It's the way that I feel So come share my world with me So there will never be

So I'm standin here Arms open wide Ready to give my heart I'm sure this time Love's gonna last for life Baby I know things change And there might be some rain But the clouds are gonna clear And the sun is gonna shine again Shine light on our love baby So let's make it last forever.

its not my first time falling in love. i fell in love for nth time already. i have stumbled, i fell, and finally now i can that i am getting up and moving on (for real!). hehehe :) i don't have somebody special right now, but im beginning to like him. hehe :) who?! hhhmmm... i'll right that here soooon...

whatttaa weeek!

2006-02-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

at long last its friday!! weeeeee! :) its been a long time since i let my feeling outta here.. haha :) well, its been really a hell week for me! thesis defense and stuffs.. but finally its all over!! whoohoo!! PICC graduation, here i come!! woohoo! :)

yesterday, isay an i had our defense.. gawd! sizzlingggg!! super! funny din kasi sobrang dami naming nakalimutang ilagay, tas ung sa time frame namin, supposed to be threee weeks lang, nakalagay dun 3 months! ahaha :) i was shocked nung sinabi nung panel na "3 months?".. nanlaki talga mata ko dun.. waehehehe :) our dear thesis adviser was late.. poor poor us.. :( but its alright, its over though! revisions na lang! :)

its a happy day for me today.. :) weee!! its 10th of the month that's why! :) thanks ja for remembering.. weee! :) i woke up at around 9am today, got up and sat on my bed, then i started singing "nobody's gonna love me better, ima stick with you forever..", the title of the song is "StickWitU-pussy cat dolls" :) i went to the bathroom and washed my face, and i heard the radio of my neighbor and guess what?! the song that was playing was StickWitU!! weee!! :) when i checked my fone, saw three unread msgs, two of it was from ryan! :) he texted me "nobody's gonna love me better, ima stick with you forever".. :) i just smiled and say "kamusta naman ang kantang STICKWITU!!".. hahaha :) funny funny tlga.. hayy.. :) its so nice so be in love.. :) stay in love.. :) love even the ones who cant' love you back! weee!! :) happy 2nd sunshine! :)

"i love you without knowing how, when or from where. i love striahgt forwardly without complexities or pride, so i lvoe because i know no other way than this, where i does not exist nor you, so close that the hand on my chest is my hand, so close that your eyes close as i fall asleep!"

weee! :) i wuv you sunshine ko! :) you make me smile.. :) you make my heart melt! i get my strength from you.. ahehehe :) drama ko! :) mwahh mwahh mwahh!! hhmmmm.. :)

when can i see you again?! :(

what does love really mean?!

2006-01-24T01:16:00.000+08:00

i've read this on friendster's bulletin board awhile ago. i found it rather nice. what does love really mean?!

True enough, when we were teenagers it was a question which we loved to answer in slumbooks. It remains a topic that creates giggles and shrieks whenever friends talk about it. But does one really know what love is? We often mistake it for a crush, an infatuation or Sometimes, even for the sheer joy in companionship. Sometimes, we think it's a feeling that we have when our hearts continue throbbing hard when we see that special person. Or when our knees start to shake and begin to weaken.But can anyone really define love? I don't think so, not even the ones who think they have felt it, or those who are feeling it, or those who hope they will feel it. Not even my philosophy teacher. Because love is not something that you define... it's a decision.When you feel that you love one person, how can you tell that he or she won't feel the same way for the next person who comes along? Love is not a feeling, it's a decision. 'Coz, when it's a feeling, it is something that floats in the air, something you cannot touch or dare to comprehend.Love, when it's a decision, makes it solid, makes it a commitment, makes it more lasting and more real. You can feel that you can be in love 20 million times in a day, but when you decide to be in love, you can only decide to be in love with one person once in your lifetime. You commit and you hold on to that decision. And when you turn your back on that decision, it means YOU WERE NEVER IN LOVE IN THE FIRST PLACE.Love should never fade. Because when it does, it means it's just an emotion. Love will never fade because a decision, once done, is something you stand up for and fight for -- no matter what.What does "I love you" mean? Some people find it easy to say the words but what really matter is being ready to stand up for it when you say those words. Are you ready to face all the consequences after saying those magical words?If you can say "I love you" long after all the tough times, all the good times and after all the words that come hurting you, then the meaning of those words become real.Of course, I still believe in those words but I myself am afraid to say them. I know there will come a time when I won't be afraid of those words coming out of my mouth. When I will be strong enough to fight for love again. And I can say the words "no matter what".Saying "I love you" is a major decision in one's life. Those words should be sacred, should be kept in your heart until you are ready to commit, to fight for that feeling and to stand by those words...

i agree with the brief description of love right here. but love is not only a decision, its also a choice. i believe that love never fades, but it becomes less. we love someone eventhoug we don't get some friggin lovin in return. but in the end, we'll get tired of loving that person and you'll end up finding someone who can love you back. saying 'i love you' to someone is never easy. you should be sure of your feelings, when you utter those three words, there is no more taking back. when you say it, you should be ready to face all the challenges that you and your partner shall undergo. when you can still 'i love you' after all the challenges, hurts, pains, and all that has been said and done, then the meaning of the magical words are true to you.

JUST LOVE AND NEVER ASK! accept your partners PAST with all your heart and soul and of course without hesitations! past should be tackled up anymore, start a new! :) don't ive up on each other that easy!

hehehe :) otei ba sa morals?! hahaha :) kidding! basta keep on loving.. :) prove your guy/gurl how much you love them, do whatever it takes.. :)

six O four! weeee! :)

2006-01-15T17:19:00.000+08:00

haven't been blogging for so long already, bur finally i got the chance to blog blog again! hahaha :) well, last friday, i went to the metro walk in pasig with my sister and with her friends.. :) we went to this resto bar called R&B revolution.. they have live bands their playing R&B songs all night.. and the band for that night was "six O four", my gawd! they sang really well, and they are all good looking, most especially, NIÑO!! wwooohohohohohoho!! :) i love him sing and i love him at all!! hahaha :) ill be watching them every friday now! hahaha :) well, here are some pix of them.. :) the first pic is Niño!! :) and the second one was all of them.. Ross, Niño and Francis! :) i think Ross is cute too, but i like Niño more! weee!! :)

im so fuck*d up..

2005-12-29T01:19:00.000+08:00

hayy.. supposed to go to galera tomorrow, pro ndi natuloy! what's new! i cancelled my bonding time with erika tas ganun lng.. but ok lng.. hahaha :) wala n ko magagawa e.. aion lng! nilalabas ko lng kabadtripan ko!

know what?! kelangan ko ng bagong blog.. ung wlng nakakaalam.. hahaha :)

don't cha wish your gurlfriend can F**K like me! :p

2005-12-22T01:43:00.000+08:00

gudafternoon gudafternoon!! jus got like 5 hours of sleep! hahaha :) came from a very hhhhmmmmm gimik las night! hahaha :) arrived home at 6:30am! gawd! so tiring! but it was hella fun!!! we went club hopping! hahaha :) we
first went to the republic of malate.. first stop was "clubbers", its ladies night!! wohhoo! angie and i got in, but it was hecka fuuulll, and when i say full, it was really full! hahaha :) so then we transferred to the other bar called "verve room", angie and i went up to check on it, it was not full, but the people there, my gawd! so nakow! hahaha :) walang kwenta! we then transferred to "common ground", the place was alright, but again it was jampacked! hahaha :) the club that we went to in the republic of malate was "padi's point", pero ndi kme dun! hahaha :) we moved to eastwood instead.. we decided to go to "the basement", it was full, but its aryt! pero jusmiyo! akala ko talaga sinehan siya, panu kasi yung mga tao, nakaupo lng ndi sumasayaw! hahaha :) pumasok na kme laht dun e.. ready to order n nga kme, kaso ang corny tlga! ang corny ng music! hahaha :) kya aion, umalis n kme.. pro before kme umalis, ang ganda ng kanta, "baby boy", bgo kme umalis, sumayaw muna kme ni gareth ant pj! hahaha :) after the song, refunddd!! hahaha :) tas aion, sa "blue onion" kme ngpunta.. so fun! chempre! bongga! sumayaw ako sa stage.. ksma c gareth! hahaha :) ndi ako na shyness.. mern ngang time dun, merng dalwang cutie na guy ang sumasayaw, sumali kme ni gareth! hahaha :) *sowee baby bubu.. sayaw lng nmn po..* tas sobrang sayaw kme ng sayaw.. we were 16 in the group! :) didnt drink to much, just drank 1 redhorse, 1 tequila sunrise, sip a little on gareth's cosmopolitan and a lil on angie's smirnoff.. haha :) funfun night! hahaha :) way to go PJ!! :) nice dance moves! haha :) way to go GARETH nice bootylicious shaking ass! hahaha :) nalock pa pla kme sa city walk mall.. hahaha :) ndi kme makapunta sa parking.. kung san san pa kme lumusot! hahaha :) trip p namin ngsimba sa antipolo after e! hahaha :) mga trip namin sa buhay, so amazingg! i'll share with you some of the pictures.. hehehe :)

don't cha wish your gurlfriend can fuck like me!! weeee!Ü

hiyeee! :)

2005-12-18T16:38:00.000+08:00

hallerky people!! it has been a long time since my last post.. haven't been blogging latey cos been busy with school and my NMAT exams. but finally, NMAT exam is over, and my med career is also over! hahaha :) kidding! school is also over, finally! its vactaion nah!! weeeee! :)

my cousin marjay had her long waited debut last night! fun fun! :) there's a cotillion ofcorz, the usual 18 candles, balloons, roses and treasures.. there's also crying moments, cos the lost of our beloved lolo ding.. :( but all went well.. :) i have a crush on one of the cotillioners named ~~paolo~~.. hahaha :) i didnt join the cotillion, but i know the entire thing, i mean the steps cos i practiced with them, for like 4 times.. just to have a dance wit him.. hahhaha :)paolo has been really my crush for like one week na.. hahaha :) i enjoy the cotillion a lot cos i get to dance with him.. i had the last practice with them last thursday, and the most kilig part here is!!! waaaaah!!! i got the chance to touch his, lump muscle! hahahahhahahahahahahahahahahaha :) :p my gawd! can get over it tlga.. hahaha :) and here pa, he squeezed my hand when we ere dancing.. haayy.. :) he holds my hips pa.. weeeeeeee!! hahaha :) grabe n toh! :) i told veejay that i have a crush on ~~paolo~~, hahahaha :) tas sabay hirit si loko,"paolo nanamn?! puro nlng paolo".. sobrang natawa tlga ako nun kxe totoo nmn e! hahaha :)

speaking of paolo!! :) mern pa akong isang paolo sa buhay ko.. my ex-beb.. hihihi :) we saw each other last night, we hugged each other and gave each other a peck on the cheek.. :) with that i became happy, kxe wla lng.. cos after a long time, he's still like that to me.. whenever we see each other, he never fails to hug me and give me a kiss.. :) ahehehe :)

the debut went well, it was so fun! :) the friends of marjay, and the rest of our family, danced to the steps of LA walk, chempre taught by tita lisa.. :) hihihihi :) then the Pinoy Big Brother theme was played, we all danced and sang with the tune.. ang saya tlga! i love seeing gareth and pj dancing.. hahaha :) pj is really a good dancer.. egoy na egoy, with matching dreads p un.. hahaha :) i also love seeing gareth shaking his boootyyy tight ass. hahahaha :) my bestfriend ekai and her band played sa debut, they're great.. my bestfriend sang very well!! :) sarap nga pakinggan sa family ko na, "reng, ganda ng voice ng friend mo a, galing nya!" i just smile sabay sbi, "bestfriend ko po.." hahaha :) masyadong proud ako noh?! well, that's life.. :)

everything comes to an end.. hahahaha :) after the dancing eklats, everyone is tired and decided to go home.. hahahaha :) i arrived home at 3am.. i was supposed to go gimik with my cousins, but i dnt have clothes to changed with.. i dont want to go to Libis wearing my stunning gown! hahahahaha :) but its aryt, more gimiks to come cos its vacationnn!! :)

hhhmm.. :)

2005-12-09T01:23:00.000+08:00

Gawd! my dad woke my up early today, we have to leave at around 9am so we could reach makati at 10am, fro tatay's dasal cos its his 40th day of death today.. :s there's a lot of food but i only ate my fave backed macaroni made by tita susan, i ate with gareth! :) but before eating, ate beng and i made the loot bags for tin's birthday party on saturday. so funny cos i saved a lot of "cloud 9" and ate it as my dessert.. hahahaÜ i even cursed the people that would eat my "cloud 9".. :)

My day's quite tiring.. veejay and i searched for a laminating film for ronron's project, but sad to say, we found none. :( i told ron that we couldn't find any laminating film and its already late.. ron's answer was "ok lang ate, sa 15 ko pa nmn kailangan e..".. susmiyo! gusto ko xiang batukan e.. hahaha Ü after that conversation with ron, i ate spag at mommy zon's house cos its tin's 1st birthday. i checked on gareth after, and saw him in the room eating lanzones, so i ate with him while watching "that's so raven", we we're laughing our hearts out with that episode.. hahaha :) we decided to look for marjay, but before we did, we saw auntie tet and my mom eating, we sat daw to have a little chitchat with them and then we started eating with them.. yes, eat again! hahaha :) we have a new motto "taste a little, eat a little, get your plate and eat some more!" hahah :) we then searched for marjay and saw practicing for the kutilyon with the others, so we joined them.. we danced for like an hour or so, it was so tiring, but really fun fun fun.. :) tanggal lht nga mga iniisip kong mga bgay bgay.. :)

* List of stuffs that I can't get out of my system *

1. Why can't you be with the one that you love? Why does he have to be far away from me?! :(

2. NMAT examinations on sunday!! waahhhhh!! :s will i make it?! :s huhuhuhuh :,c

3. Thesis, again and again and again!

4. I miss our bonding moments bes, for real.. :c hope we could bond more..

ang dami kong iniisip noh?! hahahaÜ kanya kanyang trip lng yan, wlang paki alamanan.. hahaÜ

long but happy day.. :)

2005-11-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

woke up early today cos i slept early the other nyt.. hahaha :) non-sense! but i really did woke up early, cos im excited! hahaha :) hhmm.. my day started when isay picked me up (gawd! i hope ona won't read this..) after picking me up, we decided to gate-crash at jaja's haus! we forced jaja to come with us to pick the "thing" up, jaja went with us without taking a bath! hahahaha :) e kxe namn, kayo ba nmn ang bulabugin sa bahay at piliting sumama sa makati e! hahaha :) after getting the "thing", we bought some paint, and we got HIGH up to the point that the three of us kept laughing ang laughing.. after awhile jaja got tired and sat on the chair, and i think she fell asleep, cos i was calling her and she wasn't responding.. hahaha :) so funny experience.. we dropped jaja off cos she needs to get dress for her ballet thing at mahatma.. isay and i went to sm and bought a lot of things.. ang saya! :) napagod ako sa pagtawa namin ng sobra sa felt paper!! hahahaha :) kxe merng maayos na felt paper sa top, e sbi ko kay isay, hnap p kme cos it doesnt look good nga.. edi hanap kme ng hanap, natabunan n kme ng felt paper, tas sa aming struggle sa pghahanap, ung unang felt paper pa dn ang binili nmn, panu kxe ung lng tlga pinakamaayos.. hahaha :) we went home at around 3 para mg bihis at pumasok na.. graaciousness! 4:00 kme mgkkita a, i shud be leaving the haus at 3:45, at the span of 45 minutes, i still got the chance to sleep.. hahaha :) un nga lng, instead of leaving the haus at 3:45, i left the haus at 4 na.. thank God there's no traffic, thank you God.. :)

we diddn't do much in school today, we jus had a pre-lab and a little experiment, if i may call it experiment.. hahaha :) super saglit lng tlga.. we got dissmisses early, but isay and i stayed to talk to our thesis adviser regarding our revisions and other stuffs so that we could have our final defense asap! grabe! ang tagal naming nguusap.. mga 1 hr ata.. ang daming kng anu anu.. prng mgkkproblema p ata kme sa data.. :( ngdecide kme to ult kso narealize nmn na ung final defense dpt ngaung december nah, e 3 weeks ung experiment nmn plus one week of acclimatization, kya aion, sitck with the old one nlng kme.. hehehe :)

while we were talking with our adviser, my fone kept on vibrating inside my pocket, someone's calling i thought, so i rejected the call twice.. after awhile it was vibrating again, so i answered the call, it was my ryan.. :) we talked for a little while kxe kinakausap p nmn c ms.amerix tska galit ako saknya.. we had a fight over the fon last nyt.. hahaha :) tas he called ult nung pauwi n kme, galing nga nya tumiming e.. e since galit nga ako, edi wla ako sa mood mkipagusap.. tas binabaan ko p xia ng fon.. pro maya maya lang konti, narealize ko na ndi ko na kaya.. hahaha :) tska aion nga, mahal ko e.. so i texted him to call.. and so he did.. :) tas aion, he asked me kung galit p dw ako, sbi ko ndi na.. tas aion, otei n kme. :) ang funny nga e, niloloko kme ni isay at ja..hahaha :) matagal dn kme ngusap e.. pro un nga, kelangn nya n pasok sa work e.. he's not here in the Philippines.. hhaayy.. love does really finds its way.. :)

your my only reason.. your my only truth.. my sunshine.."

sickness.. :(

2005-11-23T10:42:00.000+08:00

i think im gonna be sickk!! waaaahhh!! my head's pounding! huhuhuhuhuhu :( havent studied for endocrinology's long exam.. waaaahhh! haayy.. :(

i woke up and held my fone.. why?! because i need to hear his voice!! i need to call him, though i know his voice mail will answer.. :( its aryt cos he's the one who's talking in his voice mail.. (isay and ja, you know what am talking about..) i do call him evrynight before i go to sleep.. after hearign his voice, i can now doze off to sleep :) sounds really funny and corny, but i am doing that.. :( i miss him so much and i ges to the point that I AM ACTUALLY LONGING FOR HIM.. haayy.. what is this?!?!?!?!?!?! my love for him is less, yes it is.. but my urge of seeing him and talking to him is on its highest peak! i need him?! i don't know what to do now.. :s

i dreamt of him like two nights ago, it was a very beatiful and enchanted dream.. why enchanted?! cos the setting was in a "ball", not the bouncing ball.. haahaha :) a ball full of people dancing to slow jamz.. we were walking, hand in hand, while he's telling me his feelings for me.. :) i dont want to end that dream.. i dont want to wake up and face the fact that, that fairytale wont happen, it really wont.. :( i woke the next day with the my feeling of longingness grew even more.. but what was i gonna do?! nothing.. :(

Reng Decides To..

2005-11-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

i woke up at around 9am. i started my day by recalling all the things that i have studied the night before. after recalling them, i decided to study the other handout. after awhile, i got tired of studying, i rested and continued to read the book that i have bought yesterday, "By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept".. its a nice book, its a story of two childhood friends who havent seen each other for 11 years, and one day they decided to see each other. they love each other so much but there are some conflicts, though the guy is willing to give up everything for the girl and the girl is willing to learn everything just to be part of the guy's world.. how sweet diba?! :) ohhh, just read it! hahahaha :)

Isay and I were late for embryology, they were already taking the quiz when we arrived. but our teacher, gave us the quiz still.. hehehe :) i got a nice grade though we were late. In my next class, endocrinology, we also had a QUIZ, a FIFTY item ESSAY QUIZ, and he WASN'T around again!! hahahaha :) what's new with Sir Pareja?! :p My last class was Kursong Rizal, we don't have a permanent teacher for this class.. so funny. hahaha :)

Today, i heard from a friend that ryan called them again. i really felt sad, i even cried. i don't know, just can't help my emotions. my tears started to fall, so i went outside my classroom to breathe some air then went to the washroom. i have a lot of questions in my mind, questions that i know only ryan can answer. i don't know what had happened between the two of us, i don't know if i did something wrong or whatever. suddenly he just stopped calling. i like him, 100% but i don't love him 100%. maybe, im just missing him so much. but if he really is not for me, well then, just so be it. if he calls, i'll be really glad, but if he doesn't, still i'll wait, but not forever.

I don't know what to think anymore. its like the world has been so selfish. it sucks, big time! but its aryt, ill get thru, ill get by with me, myself and i by my side. :)

what's the post title about?! hhhmmm... im reading a new book, "Veronika Decides To Die..". changed "Veronika" to "Reng" instead.. hihihihi. :)

* i wanna feel how's it like to be loved and cared for *

new banner.. again! hahaha :)

2005-11-10T17:25:00.000+08:00

haller haller! got a new banner, again! but this time, it all by myself.. hehehe :) i got nothing to do.. im waiting for my sister, my baby corwyn and my niece alyanna.. we'll be going somewhere.. i don't know where! hahaha :) that's about it, just want to share with you guys my new banner.. :)

new banner :)

2005-11-10T01:15:00.000+08:00

i have a very nice banner noh?! :p gawa yan ng bes ekai ko.. :) at alam ko, gagawan mo pa nga ko ng maraming marami.. hahaha :) tnx so much bestfriend ko.. alabshu alabshu! :) ang ddanda danda tlga :) bukas ko n post ung two pa na nigawa nya.. for now, gotta bounce, billiards lng ako sa PS with matt.. :) to my bestfriend, thankx so much tlga.. :)

hopless romantic.. :)

2005-11-10T00:43:00.000+08:00

watched "serendipity" for the nth time when i woke up.. i dont know what has gotten into my mind para watch yung movie na yun.. hahahaha :) yah i know, its my second all time favorite movie next to "city of angels" kxe.. hehehe :) serendipity is so nice tlga.. eventhouhg i've watched it for a lot of times already, i still end up crying! hahahaha :) hopless romantic me.. :) im gonna watch it again tomorrow.. :)

fixed my "kalat papers" here sa house kanina, found lotsa stuffs.. mern akong nakitang mga note wrtings namin ni bes ekai, its so funny tlga nya! kxe i call her sungit ata before, tas she calls me super sungit in return.. hahaha :) tas i found this one note writing with josie naman, its so funny din, i wont share it nah, kinda not for everybody e.. :) tas i found a poem din, im really not sure if its a poem or what.. ill share it to you guys.. its for my someone special.. sna special din sakanya.. huhuhuhuh :,(

-The letter to the one that God has prepared for ME-

Im wondering at this very minute if you are thingking of me, if you like me, or if you are wondering whats taking us so long to find each other. many times i thought i finally found you, only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. i get up each morning, hoping, dreaming, and longing to meet you. i am thinking of how we will meet, will it be as romantic as the ones i have seen in movies? or is it possible that i have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? oh how i wish you are here right now because you are the only one who has the answers to all my questions. sometimes i ask myself if i have ever really known "LOVE". i dont have the answers to that question either but i believe that, more often than not, we will never really know what love is until we find the right person. you just dont know how often i dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. even at this very moment i am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet.perhaps i wpuld be drawn to you by your smile, or your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways. i dont really know for sure but i ampraying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes. i think of all the pain that i have gone thru in the past nad of how much i have cried since i began my search. i just wanted you to know that i find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me--the life i shall spend with you. in my mind and in my heart i know that you are worth all the pain and sacrifice. after all, the tears have become a part of my life and i believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that i would become perfect, not perfect in its true sense, but perfect fro YOU. i wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey. but my dearest one, please dont ever give up because IM RIGHT HERE, patiently waiting for you. i assure you that when we finally find each other i would slowly heal those wounds by my love. at night, i would look out my window and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. i utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens above, thinking that in time they would reach you. and when im impatient, i just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. its funny but when i finally fall asleep, it is still you that i think of, for you are always in my freams. it seems that, for now, that is the only place where i can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I LOVE YOU, in my dreams you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love. and this, all the more, makes me want to wake upand face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again im assured that you are worth the wait. and when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as i had dreamed, just as i had believed it would be. by then, i would simply look back and smile at all that i have gone thru, inspite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life--and i would be very thankful because they all led me to yuo. in the meantime, take care of yourself for me. hold on to our dream and dont even think of letting go. believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and its up to us to follow the directions. dont worry, dont be afraid of getting lost, God saw to it that all roads, no matter which one you choose to follow, lead to me..

went to school early today for our thesis' photo documentation, but unfortunately, mang juan threw all our materials already.. poor poor me and isay.. hihi :) what we did was, we went to mercury drug in front of walter mart to buy the cheap materials and have the picture of the expensive materials taken in the store itself.. hahahaha :) we did it for real.. :)

while walking to mercury drug from the parking lot, we passed by "quatro pasos", its a resort inn.. hahaha :) i remembered one conversation with joise, my good friend, about "quatro pasos" and this certain guy named.. never mind! hihihi :) i thought before that "quatro pasos" was "quatro poses".. hahahaha :) nothing lang, just would like to share it.. haha :)

ung letter n ksma dito sa post ko, nitype ko sa fon ko kanina, kxe isesend ko sna kay "ano".. kso napaisip ako ng sobra! hahaha :) takot ako e.. pro in time sesend ko dn yun, malay nyo, after nitong post ko send ko na.. hihihih :)

enough na for today.. ill be posting again tomorrow, and hopefully an new background or layout.. watever.. :) *nyt yah'all*

my 3rd post for the day.. :)

2005-11-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

my gawd! what has happend to my PC?! :( cra ata monitor ko.. hahahaha :) ampanget! waaahhh!! :( uhm, just finishd watching regine velasquez and christopher de leon's movie, i dont know what the title is, but its good.. i cried a bit.. ohhh sentimental me.. hahaha :) guess im just that hopless-romantic type! hahahaha :) i like regine's movies.. hehehe :) i like her movie with aga, two of them, "dahil may isang ikaw" and "pangako ikaw lang", i also like her movie with robin "kailangan kita".. hihihi :) i've watched "dahil may isang ikaw" for like more than 5 times.. hahhahaha :) and i always end up sobbing after the movie, ang cute nya kxe tlga e.. kakaiyak.. :,)

ang boring dito sa haus, wla cla parents tas wlng makain.. cool! hahahaha :) sa sobrang boredom ko, nghalungkat ako ng mga drawer sa guest room, tas nakakita ako ng jackstone.. hahahaha :) nglaro ako! mga 1 hr dn ata ako nglalaro e.. it was fun, though masakit xia sa likod! hahahaha :)

hhaayy.. cant sleep again.. :( always! gising ako sa night tas tulog ako sa morning.. anu kya un?! hahahaha :) i hate it.. it gives me headache.. pro, wla ko magagawa e.. hihihihih :) haayy..

gotta bounce nah.. nttmad n ko blog.. mghhnap nlng ako ng ibang ggwin.. :)

yipee!! :)

2005-11-08T13:38:00.000+08:00

yipee! yipee!! hehehehe :) i've already figured out how to change my blog titile.. :) yey! i made my own banner.. made three.. but ofcorz, i can only put 1! hahaha :)

kaaliw gumawa ng banner sa Adobe PHotoshop tska sa JASC paint shop pro.. mas otei sa JASC, user friendly xia.. ndi ko lng ma figure out kng panu xia gagawing transparent.. huhuhuhuhuh :( somebody!! help me!! hihihihih :) ill edit my blog next tym.. ill sleep muna ult.. my gawd! 5pm pa class ko! waaahhh! :) until next post..

I Ain't No Drama Queen..

2005-11-08T03:17:00.000+08:00

just another.. another.. another.. hahahaha :) i don't know.. read my angel jaide's multiply 2 nights ago, i agree with one of her blog entry, "where are your friends when you need them?!".. :) its like you're stuck with a situation wherein you needed someone to talk to but you can't find any!?! Feeling that everybody's got their own thing, and you never want to bother them at all.. Feeling that they're sick and tired of listening to your dilemmas, they listen just for the sake of you-think-they-are-listening or they-should-be-listening, but the truth is they're not.. hahahaha :)

I ain't no drama queen, its just that sometimes you can't really pass up that kind of feeling. All you can do is shed tears until it rans out, keep things to yourself and learn how to handle things or situations alone. :) Nothing lasts forever, everything and everybody changes, and promises are meant to be broken. But nevertheless, love your family, friends and most of all love those people who have hurt you more than yourself. :)

well, gotta bounce and get some sleep.. hihihi :) *peace out ya'all*

im all out of love?! :)

2005-11-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

bkt im all oit of love?! hahahaha :) kxe naman, for the past three days, c veejay, angie at marjay kinukulit ako sa "asawa" ko dw.. c paolo.. hahahaha!! :) c veejay pa ang nangunguna tlga a! it all started wen paolo visited the wake of my uncle.. i didnt know that he was there, tas c veejay pinatawag ako sa brother nya kxe hinahanap n dw ako ng "asawa" ko, e i was doing sumthing pa, so ndi muna ako pumunta kay veejay.. tas after awhile i went down to my other auntie's haus to sit down and watch tv.. tas angie dumating, she was calling me to accompany my "asawa" kilala tatay.. edi pumunta ko dun, pro ndi para samahan xia kundi apra uminom ng water! hahahahaha :) ndi ko tlga xia nipansin (ang sama mo reng! hahaha!) tas narealize ko na wawa nmn kxe ala xia kausap at ksma, so i decided to accompany him, edi cnamahan ko n nga, kwentuhan lng.. tas aftr awhle, dumating n c angie at veejay.. sumiyo! mga pang-asar n mga ngiti! hahahaha :) tas maya maya lng, paolo left na kxe he works sa people support sa makati, tas 11pm-8am uyng shift nya.. wawa nga e.. graveyard! :( tas nung umalis n xia, kng anu anu na pnguusapn nmn ni angie, veejay and ron.. para nga dw ako adik e, tawa kxe tlga ako ng tawa... hahahahaha :) tas dumating c marjay, edi lalong tumindi ang asaran at tawanan... hahahhaaha :) tas kanina eto nnmn cla po! after ng libing, we stayed p sa cemtery to eat lunch.. e nandun dn c paolo.. tas ndi tlga kme msyado ngppnsinan.. nung sa chapel lng nung ni hwakan nya ko sa kamay.. tas nung ngkatinginan kme tas cnbi nya n "ang init".. hahhaahha :) tas nung ngsama kme nla marjay, veejay, at angie sa table, ng asaran nnmn po! hahaha :) tas etong c marjay bgla nlng kumanta ng "because of you, my life has changed....." tas edi tawanan kme.. hahahaha :) tas umalis n c paolo, aminado nmn ako na nititgnan ko xia nung umalis e.. pro ndi ko akalain n ang tagal ko ng nakatitig sa kanilang family.. hahahaha :) tas bglang kunata tong c angie ng "umuwi k na baby".. hahahahaha :) tas sabay kanta ko "im all out of love.." hahahaha :) tas c veejay tawa ng tawa nung cnbi ko n divorce n kme ni paolo.. sbi nya "sa corte n yan.." sbi ko nmn "no nid na kxe the feeling is mutual!!" hahahahahaha :)

tas aion, hanggang sa tym n toh, mgksma kme ni marjay tas kumakanta kme ng "im lying alone, with my head on the fone, thinking of you til it hurts.. i know ur hurt too but wat else can we do?! tormented andtorn apart.." hahahahaha :) haaayy...

haayy.. another lost..

2005-11-06T19:40:00.000+08:00

we had tatay's internment today at hertiage park in taguig.. we left their house at around 9 am and arrived at heritage park's chapel at around 9:45 am.. we held a mass there before the internment itself.. the priest that held the mass was our family priest, father glenn.. the chapel was filled with people mourning for the lost of tatay.. after the communion, father glen let some of the family members give their final message to tatay and to those people who mourned with them.. ate blescie, veejay, one of tatay's close friend and i spoke.. i was the first one to spoke.. i read a message from one of tatay's grandson, my nephew gareth.. gareth, wasn't able to come home from the states due to his school.. gareth, wrote a letter for his lolo, a short letter filled with heart-warming messages that made a lot of people shed their tears.. :c the next speaker was ate blescie, the only phrase that i remembered from what she said was "our tatay, was not just a tatay to our family, but also for everybody..".. veejay was the next one who spoke, he made the people cry more, for veejay told everybody what had happened before tatay passed away.. veejay was the one who was beside tatay when he had the heart attack.. the mass ended at 11am, the caskette of tatay was placed in a very nice carraige filled with white flowers and pulled by a white horse.. there were a lot of people who mourned with our family, someone told us that all in all, 105 cars joined the convery of our beloved tatay.. now, he had left us, it is really painful but we have to accept that he is now not with us physically but his spirit and memories will always be alive in our hearts.. Farewell, dear tatay, we will see you again, one sweet day.. you will always be in our prayers..