sickness.. :(

i think im gonna be sickk!! waaaahhh!! my head's pounding! huhuhuhuhuhu :( havent studied for endocrinology's long exam.. waaaahhh! haayy.. :(

i woke up and held my fone.. why?! because i need to hear his voice!! i need to call him, though i know his voice mail will answer.. :( its aryt cos he's the one who's talking in his voice mail.. (isay and ja, you know what am talking about..) i do call him evrynight before i go to sleep.. after hearign his voice, i can now doze off to sleep :) sounds really funny and corny, but i am doing that.. :( i miss him so much and i ges to the point that I AM ACTUALLY LONGING FOR HIM.. haayy.. what is this?!?!?!?!?!?! my love for him is less, yes it is.. but my urge of seeing him and talking to him is on its highest peak! i need him?! i don't know what to do now.. :s

i dreamt of him like two nights ago, it was a very beatiful and enchanted dream.. why enchanted?! cos the setting was in a "ball", not the bouncing ball.. haahaha :) a ball full of people dancing to slow jamz.. we were walking, hand in hand, while he's telling me his feelings for me.. :) i dont want to end that dream.. i dont want to wake up and face the fact that, that fairytale wont happen, it really wont.. :( i woke the next day with the my feeling of longingness grew even more.. but what was i gonna do?! nothing.. :(